Unfinished Business

This is suppose to be a fun, happy, merry time of year, but all I feel are tears threatening to spill over. I want to be excited for a new year, but then I am reminded of still unfinished business from this past year that will carry over. I just wanted it to at least feel like a fresh start but I don't even have that. I'm tired, I'm frustrated and I feel unresolved.

Old Journal Entry

"The tears that are forever in my eyes are mistaken as the glisten and sparkle of a merry heart. It is so easy to say it is all okay and much harder to say it is not."
~June 8, 2011

First of Many

Sometimes things are just not as they should be. This was the first Christmas I have ever been away from my children and it should have been the first Christmas of my youngest child. It is a strange reminder of poor choices. Choices that have brought me to the first of what will be many lonely Christmas's.