Memories and dreams. How easily
they are repainted in a new light with
new colors. Erasing what is wished to
be forgotten. Bending and twisting
shape and form to make something
new from something old. Seeing now
that recreating what was lost is not so
difficult. But void can not be erased or
covered. Pure emptiness remains.
Reminding of what once was and can
never be forgotten.

Chasing through the tall meadow grass

Dancing on the lake

Watching the jumping fish

The lapping of the water and my feet

The cool dark sand underneath my toes

A fresh cup of coffee and a lounge chair in the sand

Silence. Alone. Solitude.

Only then can I breathe.

But why then--do I feel so empty.

Why do I long to have you at my side?

Touching my hand and feeling by heart

Breathe in…..Breathe out

Breathe in….Breathe out

Can you feel it?

Do you see it?

The cold chill of winter

There is purple on the snow and the lake is frozen

I see you and you see me and we are enraptured

I feel the fantasy of a strange and mystical world

Circling around our bodies

There is quiet in the midst of chaos.

What did I miss? Where did you go?

Let me keep the illusion of a moment in time.

But She is strong.

Her jaw is set by hardship and she will not back down.

She will not be captured.

She will not be tamed.

Run with her

Look at her and you will see

Her browned skin tangled hair and deep eyes

Her legs are strong but are no match for her mind

Drowning. to keep another afloat.

Clinging. to keep another from falling.

Desperate. to. save. their. souls.

Success. to relinquish this life.

tried with. toyed with. you don’t see me. you only see you.

saying i’m free. you hold me down.

love me. lie to me. it’s all the same.

I take my own hand. I hold my own heart. I give life to myself.

It is deep in my belly
I can no longer contain it
My body aches for the expression. the release.
Pushing through my skin
Desperate to be free
The fluid movements of passion control my limbs.
Control my thoughts. My body.
The Fire, it escapes from my depths
Bursting from my every being

To crawl inside your skin. To See through your eyes. To Listen through your ears. To Touch through your hands. To Know your thoughts and Why. Talk. I'll listen. Just to hear the sound of your voice. my lips are silent with anticipation. the beating of my heart is the only sound I make. I see the shell but it is what is underneath that i truly desire. I am grasping for a door, a window, a crack to see. Just a small glimpse of the wonder and beauty inside. But I cannot find it. I am here. You are there. Like swings moving out of sink quickly gliding past with only a blur to reveal who you are.