Deep breath....what else can I do? How is it that things seem to turn upside down so quickly? One minute it is this perfectly focused and at peace mentality and the next I am in a deep dark pit. Breathe...the feelings are so intense and real. I think I have to remember that there are still things that are very good in my life. I have to stop and focus on those things. I must grab hold of the good otherwise I will drown.